An Awaited Call

I so want to write about good news, but unfortunately cannot. The call came from MD Anderson not too long ago. I was so excited to hear that person on the other end. He didn't sound very old, probably early 20's. He asked me a few questions, & then the two questions that determined my fate. " What reason do you want to come to MD Anderson? " Here I'm thinking...dude I've got cancer & want to go to one of the best centers in the country & I need a second opinion!! Kindly I said the latter, but what kind of question is that? Then he proceeded to tell me that due to their patient volume that they wouldn't see me JUST to give me a second opinion. Well, that pretty much shot me down. I then said I wanted to see what treatment options there were for what I have. He then asked "what treatment are you currently on?" I went on to tell him that I just went off the clinical trial last week, so I'm currently on blah, blah, blah. He then said that since I started a new treatment that I would have to finish this up & see how it has worked. My heart sank. I pleaded with him..."I just started it last Friday, I will stop taking it if it meant being able to schedule an appointment with them." To no avail did any type of convincing work, so I thought I'll just ask to speak to someone else. After a short wait, a nurse was on the line. Again, I told her what drugs I was on & she said the same as that "young thang"! I was in tears & could barely finish the conversation. Oh! And to top it off she kept calling me Ms. Singer. I was so annoyed I finally said in a not so kind tone. MY NAME IS NOT MS. SINGER! She is my primary care doctor. My name is... She said "just a minute", & I could tell she was trying to verify to whom she was suppose to be talking. She then said "do you want me to call your doctor & explain this." Of course I agreed. So we are going to look into other places now. Pray that I can stay positive about finding other possibilities. The last day & a half I have felt horrible. Pray I can feel better for the weekend.