The Week I Missed

I haven't had much time to write lately. The kids got out this past Friday, & earlier last week I felt crappy. It has been a rat race with the kids, appointments, & winter break starting @ noon on Dec. 14th. I tried to keep chugging along & pretend I wasn't feeling tired. I didn't take much time to rest. We had four Christmas parties to attend, so I had to push on. The kids had basketball practice, game on Saturday, & class parties. They helped me get all their gifts together for their teachers & friends which was fun. Unfortunately, I knew Monday before last that something wasn't quite right. I had a sore throat for five days straight, & little energy by the time my next treatment of taxol was due. As I sat waiting on the research nurse to come in & review my labs that I already knew were bad, I couldn't keep the tears from flowing. I knew it was going to be another week without treatment. As she came in, she said wipe that sad face off & let me tell you what Dr. Mainwaring & I have discussed. Ok, as I perked up. I guess they already were anticipating my white blood cells to start taking a nosedive. She had found a part of the study that would allow the taxol to be discontinued if my wbc count was steadily declining. They figured this was the main drug causing the decline anyway. So I left there with nothing. I did rip my wig off for her, before leaving the room of course, & show her how my hair was growing back. She was amazed!! With the taxol being out of the equation now, maybe my hair will continue to come back. I'm not liking all the gray I see though. Before too much longer you may be seeing me with a little spiky "do".

Please continue to pray that my white blood cells will soar by leaps & bounds. I know the doctors know what they are doing with my treatment, but God is the ultimate physician. He knows what my body needs & how much. It is scary for them to take a drug away, since I got the great news a couple weeks ago. There is a chance, of course, & the research nurse mentioned that it may not "pack a punch" like it did, but it is better to take this drug off the regimen & stay on study. LeeAnn (research nurse) is wonderful & I trust her like I do Dr. Mainwaring. I know they are going to do all they can to not jeopardize my being released from the clinical trial study.

Everyone will know that the Lord does not need weapons to rescue his people. It is his battle, not ours.
1 Samuel 17:47 NLT