So Blessed

I'm not packed! Not a stitch in my bag. I have a mental list, but there is still more laundry to be folded & washed. I washed sheets & now have to get the beds made. Today has been nothing but errands after dropping the kids off to school. I now lay in bed so exhausted that I can't sleep...so I type.

My main reason for this entry is to thank all my family, friends, acquaintances, & total strangers for remembering us during this time. Anthony & I fly out on Sunday night at 6p. Please pray for safe travels. I got my H1N1 vaccine today as advised by my oncologist. Getting on that plane I felt it was necessary. I said a prayer as I got it. Please pray for our children, Abby & Austin. I know that my in-laws will take good care of them, but I know how those sweet babies think at bedtime. Of course they want their momma!! Austin asked me tonight if he could go. Breaks my heart. I just keep thinking why I am doing this. I don't want to miss a thing. Not a ballgame, next years volleyball season, another trip to Disney, checking out colleges, graduation, college football wherever they end up, another graduation...the list goes on.

So many have commented on how strong I am. It's all HIM, not me. I have to focus on HIM to get me through each day. I'm not nervous about going to Issels. All the details are already laid out. I just have to get on the plane & show up. Being anxious isn't going to get me anything but an ulcer. All I have is a positive attitude & great faith in my Maker that HE is preparing a much better place for me whether it be next week, next year or ten years from now. My body will be made new.

If you have your health take a moment & thank God for that gift. He suffered, bled, and died for you & me. No disease can compare to what He did for me. WOW! I'm so blessed!